For a taster and I guess my favourite was early hours of new years eve morn, 2013, I became aware that I was in a lucid dream state, Howard was there and we had been talking and catching up, He looked at me and said, "its nearly time for you to go, you will be waking soon" he then held me tight and pressed a tender but gentle kiss upon my lips, I then awoke, only to feel the kiss still pressed there on my lips, the sensation would last throughout the whole day and partially through the next!
I am not one for flights of fancy and am an open minded sceptic, in short I have to see or feel things for myself to believe in them.
I would now add, risking the sickening sweetness, that when Howard and I first met we spent a lot of time together in the boat yard at Newhaven where we both had boats, after many weeks of working on the boats and hours of conversations it was clear I think to us both that there was much more to our meeting and friendship than just casual friends.
One evening in November 2002 Howard gave me a lift home from the boat yard, where we had battened down the hatches on Kingfisher and the barge, due to weather warnings, I felt compelled to lean over and give Howard a kiss, to thank him for his help, I then turned and exited the red audi estate car that he drove at the time.
Stay with me you will see the relevance shortly and realise that I am not just reminiscing!
The following morning Howard arrived, un announced or expected, at my door, asking to give me a lift to the boat yard via a walk on Seaford head, He confessed he needed to talk to me and went on to explain that he felt something deep within his soul, A kind of recognition and that he had felt this way a little while, He then went on to ask why I had kissed him the night before and how I had felt afterwards.......... He said that he "had felt my lips pressed against his ever since"!!!!!! I know its real romantic movie moment stuff!
I have to admit at the time that although it was the loveliest thing anyone had said to me I couldn't help but wonder if he was for real or a very smooth charmer!
Upon the very next ouja session after the lucid dream, 17/01/14 I had decided that if Howard came through on the board that I would ask him about it, he did, first time in some months, Un prompted the glass pointed to me and the letter "F" then waited for recognition that he wanted my attention, then went to "X" (Howard often uses text lingo short cuts on the board!)without prompting, it was, I felt, further confirmation of his spiritual presence and the reality of my lucid encounter.
Other messages and notes from this and other sessions will follow.
Since I last wrote on this page there has been indications transmitted or implanted into my head giving the names of "Paracelsus" and Ptolemy, I believe upon looking them up that paracelsus could well have been a great influence or associate of Howards from a past life or even a past life of Howards, Ptolomy and his works regarding sacred geometry and harmonics were things that howard was researching in this life and I think therefore important in relation to his current interests and works.
Many of my communications, dreams etc with Howard are very personal and of no outer relevance so I have not continued to add them to the blog, however around the anniversary of his passing I was taken to cantels boatyard, in a visionary sense, the Dorothy , his house boat, was still there, he was in the stern, sitting on his wooden chair, as he always did, I was unable to get close to him as it was barrierd, he smiled at me then closed his eyes.
He was clearly channeling knowledge and answers, there was an elderly , "Ben gun", looking man, white whispy hair who was like a messenger, receiving questions and relaying Howards answers.
Howard described having seen this same elderly wild looking man several times during the last few months of his life, he was unsure if he was a spiritual guide or in fact his own higher self.
Howard has always been present in near or distant formats, never more strongly or closer thsn of late, my grandmother, a romany shiovani/seeress almost, tarot reader and healer, passed away on 04.o3.19. They met after her onset of dementia, but were great friends. Howards presence has been at the forefront pre and post her passing and is i feel related. Things of his, thought lost, have been turning up in unexpected places, also things have been duplicated and I now have 2 of them! One thing that's been highlighted and signposted, so to speak, is slim spurling and his light life tensor rings, which in turn has lead to orgone, rodins vortex , zero point field among others.
That's lovely Fran. We all miss Howard, but the kiss was only ever for you x
ReplyDelete